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Sunday, October 29, 2006
@ Sunday, October 29, 2006
okay. i feel really deprived now. no, my life is good still. it's just that without my other computer everything is gone. blog links, important documents - all gone. i can't wait for it to be fine again. i will definitely do a backup. read a few blogs, and thought a bit. life is really passing by so very quickly now. i don't know, but i really don't feel comfortable (or confident enough) to move on. surprisingly i'm happy with the current life i'm leading. which is quite (cough) pathetic. because i am not studying, and neither am i pursuing something i love. i miss the netballers, a lot. i miss our spirit, and probably the ability of mine to fight for a passion. i can remember how tired i used to be when i reach home after matches and trainings, because i just live so bloody far away from everywhere. how mentally exhausted i'll be because i simply can't (and don't really want to) work hard. how my teammates are forever by my side!:D and a lot more. people in school, classmates, next-door-neighbours, teachers, everything. we can't miss the past, we shall only cherish it. but i think the only thing i can probably never let go is relationships. but i don't want to think too much, because i don't think i should spare any time for such thoughts, at this moment. hopped by eileen's blog (one of the four blogs i visited today cos i simply forgot everyone else's links :x) and i read this:believe in passion. that was what made me fight, made me believe in miracles and also the reason i played alongside with my teammates when i already have a million excuses in mind not to. it was the teamspirit that made me go on when i can no longer do it. perhaps, to the school, we did not have any achievements this year. but looking back, i feel that we did. perhaps we did not want it as much as the other teams want it, perhaps we were weaker both physically and mentally. but that doesn mean that we're less worthy of standing on the same court as the other team. does it? didn't we train as hard? running under the scorching sun, in the rain (even when there was lightning)? didn't we give in our all as well? not performing in that 40mins game doesn condemn us. learn to believe and search for that passion within you. you ppl better buck up. i haven teamtalk with you guys for a long time. dont make me do a 4-hr one. make a difference. make your presence felt. everyone has their strengths and weaknesses. your teammates are always there for you. be it a broken knee, a fractured ankle or a sprained wrist, these are insignificant obstacles. your team is what matter most. without them, even with the best skills, you're nothing on court. it's not about being a great athlete. it's about being a great team. trust. okay this is one of the reasons why it made me think of the team. how stupid bloody eileen used to have ridiculously long comments during teamtalks and refuse to let anyone interrupt her and how leepeilin will sit at the corner looking bored (but i was listening) and then stupid eileen will call me and ask me for my opinion! hahaha just to test whether i was listening. i love teamtalks, it's a moment of encouragement and just being frank and comfortable with everyone else. and people like sylvia and me will remove our tapes will all the ugly cuts on our feet and making the team go "ewww" <:D i miss my team, my cdiv, my bdiv, my club team. you guys are not the best, but you're the best part of my life. ah, i miss the game, terribly. |
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